when you wonder whether you're making any sense

i think im getting sick.

and id hate to sound stupid but things are 'complicated' and sometimes the way to work them out is to talk to the person but what happens when you physically can't? Well. Not can't as in they are a thousand kilometres away but as in everytime you see them you choke up and avoid them until you feel safe. is that what it is? i feel like its dangerous?

i am sick.
cough.